These are the human innovations that I think have contributed the most to human well-being and happiness. They did so directly, by improving lives immediately, and also contributed to future innovations that couldn’t have happened without the initial changes. So here’s to human creativity and persistence.

  • Harnessing Fire
    • Cooking (which led to bigger brains and better health)
  • Written Language
    • Organization, History, Literature, Mathematics,
  • Harnessing Yeast
    • Bread and Beer
  • Metalwork
    • Bronze, Iron, Steel, Copper, Tin, etc
    • Plows, Hammers, Nails, Swords
  • Glasswork
    • Food Storage, Windows, Mirrors
  • Sewage Systems & Aquaducts
    • Cities
  • Clockwork
    • Gears
    • Precision Timekeeping
  • Rubber & Plastics
    • Medical Tubing, Tires, Insulation, Fabrics
  • Lenses
    • Telescopes, Microscopes, Eyeglasses, Cameras
    • Photography, Motion Pictures, Television
  • Internal Combustion Engine
    • Planes, Trains, and Automobiles
    • Rockets
  • Harnassing Microbes
    • Vaccines, Antibiotics, Sanitation
  • Harnessing Electrons
    • Refrigeration
    • Telegraph, Telephone, Radio, Radar
    • Computers
    • Nuclear Power
    • Lasers

Did I miss anything you think is important? Comment below and add to my list.

Written on February 3rd, 2012 , Philosophy Tags: , ,

I wish I remembered exactly which model it was, but I don’t. All I remember is that it was a Xmas gift to me in 1976, when I was 13, and that it remains one of the top 10 presents I ever received in my life.

It was a Polaroid, probably a Colorpack model. It was a solid body, with no parts that popped up or unfolded, and the film fit into the back and the photos came out the side.

Polaroid Colorpack Camera

Polaroid Colorpack Camera (image borrowed from camerapedia.wikia.com) Not exactly like the one I had, but similar.

I remember there were very few exposures in a single box of film, maybe only 8 or 10, and that a box of film cost in the range of $9 or $10. Which was a fortune to me at the time. I didn’t get an allowance, and finding a job was (for various reasons I won’t get into) not possible.

The shots I took with that camera are mostly of family and friends from 1976 and 1980. They are either over-exposed or under-exposed, mostly candid, a few posed. There’s nothing about any of them that is particularly creative, innovative, or even clever. I didn’t know anything about composition, lighting, or photo manipulation at the time and film was too expensive for me to risk playing around for fear of messing it up.  I was just tickled to be able to take photos at all.

I loved that camera but rarely had any film for it.

I got my next camera in the early 1980s. It was a free 35mm Kodak that came with a magazine subscription. And I only subscribed to the magazine, really, to get the free camera. By that time, I had a husband and a child, and soon a second child, then a third, so the majority of the photos I took were of my children. Even though money was tight, we could justify the expense of film and development, especially for birthdays and holidays and vacations and trips to the zoo, and the majority of photos were of those sorts of family events.

Of course, I still didn’t know anything about ‘photography.’ I wanted to learn, but this was still long before the internet or Google and I had my hands full with 3 little kids and my own inner demons and various other life issues. It just never happened.

I used the heck out of that little 35mm Kodak, and the similar inexpensive 35mms that followed, all through the 1980s and 1990s. I documented almost everything about our family history and the results are filed by year in 8 large shoebox-sized boxes.

Then, sometime early in the 2000s, we got our first digital camera.

And that’s where I’ll take up the story next Tuesday.

Written on January 24th, 2012 , Art Tags: ,

I recently read Pain, Suffering And Developing Creativity by Douglas Eby, published at Design Taxi. I began thinking about again about my own formerly turbulent inner life and its relationship to my creativity.

I think of my life as having 3 distinct phases. There was ‘childhood.’ Then there was ‘married with children,’ which started when I was 18 and continued for over 20 years.

Then there is the phase I’m in now: Life with Zoloft.

Because, you see, the first two parts of my life were spent on a wounded emotional roller coaster of painful shyness, self-loathing, over-sensitivity, and general misery. It was crippling, but not completely debilitating. Off and on, I still wrote poetry, short stories, musicals, and a novel, held a job or two, finished my fine arts degree in creative writing, even did some volunteer work. (In addition to being a wife and mother of 3.)

But it was all under the heavy, dark, burdensome yoke of depression that followed me everywhere like my own personal thunderstorm. No matter what I tried to do – positive thinking, exercise, meditation, religion – the storm was always in me, rumbling in my bottomless chasm of unfulfillable need, as I called it in my reams and reams of soul-searching journal writing from those years.

Not only did I carry all that within me, it only became darker and louder as years went by, until it was in fact debilitating. I was nearly housebound. My creative well was dry, confined to a few bloody motifs that I’d been circling for years. I faked life well, though, and my family and few friends had no idea the degree to which I suffered internally.

And despite my constant yearning to make a career for myself in writing, art, or graphic design, even the thought of putting together a portfolio or applying for a job gave me panic attacks.

Then, in a desperate final cry for help, I asked my doctor for Zoloft for social anxiety. As far as I was concerned, the terror of interacting with other people was my main problem. I was so accustomed to the inner turmoil that bad seemed normal. If only I could eliminate the social anxiety, I could do something meaningful in the world.

Fast-forward 5+ years. That old me is like a nightmare that I remember and I’m so glad now to be awake. I’ve apologized to my wonderful supportive husband and to my children for any and all spillover of misery. I’ve made new friends, gone back to school, learned things I never thought of before, and my life is an expanding universe of wonder and peace.

Perfection? Phooey on perfection. It doesn’t exist. So, no, my life isn’t perfect. Crappy things still happen. I still make mistakes. And sometimes, life has a few more thorns than roses.

But the difference is that my inner psyche is on an even keel, able to deal with anything life puts in front of me. My new job with the National Park Service involves public speaking on a regular basis, which I enjoy! A far cry from where I was just a few short years ago, when even the idea of speaking to a stranger made me nauseous.

So what about my creative work? Well, for a while there, I didn’t create much. Being creative was so tied up in my previous misery that without the misery I felt I had no material to write about.

Instead, I spent time rediscovering myself. I learned what the new, improved me liked to do, how I could interact with the world, and what I felt about everything now that the shadow of depression and fear was gone. I found my new voice, my new vision, and new knowledge and new beliefs.

Of course, everything didn’t change. I still enjoy gothic literature and gargoyles. I still like to study abnormal psychology and psychopathy. I still like Lovecraft and King and Hitchcock and Mystery Science Theater 3000. But it’s like I’m seeing these things in sunshine now, rather than obscured by my own mask of distorted afflictions. It’s hard to explain.

But I also became able to embrace new adventures that I never even considered before. Like painting and crafting in my own personal evolving style. And birding. And giving nature talks at the park. And pursuing graduate degrees.

Like the article suggests, I can remember enough misery from my former existence to create all the drama and conflict my artwork might need to be interesting. I have no desire to live waist deep in that misery now that I’ve experienced the alternative.

And I don’t think my creative work has suffered. In fact, I think it has grown and expanded, particularly in subject matter, but also in courage and daring as I take on new subjects and new techniques in my own newly discovered personal style.

My muse now lives at the intersection of nature, art, literature, and philosophy, not at a bottomless chasm of self-loathing. It’s no longer meaningless misery, but insight into what life can mean when we follow our passions into new and unexplored territory.

I’m not a medical doctor, but if you are living in a swirling cesspool of endless unhappiness, I strongly urge you to get help from a medical doctor. Maybe that help comes in a pill. Maybe therapy. Maybe both. But there can be something better.

Written on January 23rd, 2012 , Art Tags: ,
White Throated Sparrow

White Throated Sparrow

I’m a horrible birder.

I told you last time how I got into birding a few years ago.  But although I enjoy birding – seeing the birds, taking their pictures, learning their songs and habits, and I’ve made many new friends and had many new experiences because of my interest in birding – I also admit without reservation that I suck at it.

Last Saturday the weather here in Northern Virginia was sunny and very mild – 65-70° – so I packed up my camera and went to Occoquan Bay National Wildlife Refuge to see if there were any birds that I could photograph.  I particularly wanted bluebirds.  There’s a population of bluebirds that lives at the refuge, but I’ve never manage to get a good close-up photo of one.

In the parking lot there was an unusually high number of cars, but I just figured that it was because of the mild weather.

I hit the trail with my camera, tripod, and binoculars about 1:30pm.  A few song sparrows darted around in the high grass, but none posed for me.  A blue heron flew by high overhead.  I walked around to the area where I’d seen waxwings recently.  Nothing.  A little further on, I spotted a white throated sparrow.  (See photo above.  It was breezy, so the branch moved just enough to blur all 6 photos I took before he fluttered off into the brambles.)

Meantime, I noticed a lot of people on the trail going past me.  Because they were carrying binoculars and spotting scopes and cameras, they’re obviously birders.  And it’s very unusual for birders to be out in the afternoon.  They tend to…. well…. get up with the birds.  (Birds are most active in the morning, during the first couple hours after sunrise, and least active in the warm afternoons.  So most birders stalk their tiny prey first thing in the morning.)

When I got tired of waiting for the white throated sparrow to make a reappearance, I moved further along the trail.  Near the creek, a pair of cardinals flit across the road in front of me and disappear into the brush.  There were birders there, too, pishing (which, btw, is against the rules on a refuge) and talking.  As I got closer, I recognized a friend who I’d met through bird banding.  We chatted for a couple minutes, then we both moved on.  She didn’t mention anything unusual going on.

(I found out later that she assumed I knew what was going on and that’s why she hadn’t mentioned it.)

I kept going toward the field where I’d seen many bluebirds many times in the past.  I didn’t see a single bird anywhere.  Nor did I hear any.  (More on that in the minute.)  I passed a guy headed the other way and asked him if he’d seen any bluebirds.  He seemed confused, then said no, and we both moved on.

I didn’t see or hear a thing except the low murmur of other groups of birders further ahead and on a side trail.  No birds.  So I continued to the bay hoping to at least see some ducks or cormorants or eagles.  Even a seagull or a heron would have been welcome, although I’ve taken lots of shots of those in the past.

I set up within 6 ft of the water’s edge. (Lat:  38°38’52.72″N.  Long:  77°13’27.77″W) It’s a great spot and one of my usual birdwatching sites.  But that day, there were no ducks, no cormorants, and the only gulls were so far away that they were difficult to make out even with my binoculars.

There was an eagle perched in the tree on Conrad Island, but he was too distant for me to get a really good shot.  But I got him anyway.

Bald Eagle

Bald Eagle

I sat there for a while, snapped a few shots of the bay, the rescue boats that zoomed past, the distant line of gulls.  A lady bug visited me, crawling up my arm.  But no birds.  Dead silence to my ears.
After a long sit, I packed up my gear again and headed back toward the parking lot.  Obviously nothing was going on.  No birds.  Just people.  And it was probably the unusual number of people who were scaring the birds into hiding.
Just as I rounded the corner and began up the road through the bluebird field again, a Fish & Wildlife truck was coming toward me.  It was the refuge manager, another friend of mine, who offered to give me a lift back to the parking lot.  I accepted.  I climbed into the truck.  He had a pair of binoculars around his neck and two more sitting on the seat, in addition to a bird book.  None of that was really out of place. Then he mentioned that the previous weekend there had been a sighting of a Brewer’s Sparrow on the refuge and that was why the parking had been full since before 8am when he came work.  Everything fell into place.

Brewer’s Sparrows are nondescript little brown, black, and buff birds, only distinguished from other sparrows by their lack of distinguishing field marks.  But they are a big deal here in Virginia, drawing birders from as far away as Roanoke, because their usual territory is west of the Rockies, especially in the southwest.  Certainly not in the mid-atlantic region.

And apparently at least three more birders had seen the Brewer’s that very morning.

So, now, you’re wondering what about any of that makes me a horrible birder.  I’ll explain.

In the first place, I subscribe to VA-Bird, a list-serve that sends out notification of bird sightings from all over the state.  However,  I’d fallen out of the habit of birding regularly, so I hadn’t been paying attention to the emails.  If I had, I would’ve known about the Brewer’s Sparrow.

In the second place, according to later postings to VA-Bird, I missed seeing all the other birds, too.  Other birders saw several hawks, mergansers, wigeons, a variety of ducks, a Palm Warbler and several other types of sparrows, as well as the Brewer’s Sparrow.  Granted, they’d been there from 7am until noonish, whereas I was only there for a couple hours in the afternoon.  But still, discouraging.

In the third place, I can’t hear the birds.  I’m not completely deaf, and I do hear some birds, but I’ve lost the higher range of sounds.  Often when I’m with other birders, they’ll say, “Did you hear that?”  Nope.  Nothing.  I didn’t hear a thing.

At least half of birding is hearing the chirps and tweets and using the sound to track the bird, then finally spotting it with the binoculars.  But I literally can’t hear most of what other birders can, so my birding skills are limited.

So I’m a horrible birder.  I didn’t keep up with the breaking news in the birding community, nor did I see even a fraction of what others saw, nor could I hear what they can hear even if I try.

Alas.

But I do it anyway.  Because the anticipation and excitement of seeing a new bird, the thrill of getting one really nice photo out of fifty shots taken, not to mention the beautiful scenery, fresh air, and effortless exercise (made effortless by the sense of purpose, anticipation, and excitement) all make the disappointments and hours of waiting worthwhile.

You understand completely if you’ve ever seen a yellow-rumped warbler, a scarlet tanager, or a pileated woodpecker.

Who wouldn’t get up early and traipse through the woods for a chance to see pileated woodpecker?  Come on, now.  Admit it.  You want to.

Written on January 9th, 2012 , Nature Tags: , , , ,

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